Letters for you: When I first saw you!

To someone I never should’ve met,

   “Why are you such a hopeless romantic?” the words you told me that day – the last time we met. They still ring in my ears, everytime your face flashes in my eyes, which is almost always. After you’ve decided to end things with me, I swore of never thinking of you again. And this made me realize how true you were in telling me that I’m a weak schmuck who’s afraid to look into the eyes of reality.

   “This can’t be the end of it,” I repeat that even today, but however, I’ve resolved to change this recurring nature of mine. These letters are an effort towards the same and with the last letter, I hope to end everything I have for you in my heart!

   Being a hopeless romantic, I thought it would be in a most special way that you’ll enter into my life – I still believe you were that special one for me – nothing as such happened, though.

   The first time I saw you standing near the coffee machine in the office, when I strolled there for my evening dose of caffeine. The first thing I noticed were your footwear and its striking line of small bells lined across its length. You later told me that they were your mother’s sandals that you really loved and to make it look trendy, you sewed those bells yourself. I tried to look at your face, but your dense curly hair failed my every attempt I made from different angles. I dropped the idea, as I already had enough disappointments for the day.

                                                                           

   A couple of days passed, before I heard those ‘chan chans’ – as you call them. I instantly turned to the sandals and smiled to myself. Then I noticed you looking weirdly at me. I tried to smile at you, which you chose to ignore and walk away!

  I so wanted you to turn back then, and even today!!

From someone who never should’ve looked at you.

How far I've come: Goodbye to someone I've been holding onto!!

Hi,

   (I wasted about an hour thinking how I should address you when I finally realized you don’t mean anything to me now)

   You must be wondering how I gathered courage or sensibility to write about the feeling that has tested my sanity and nearly devastated my beliefs. You just came into my life, without even a brief sign of it, not even as much as of breeze of air. Little did I know what you were to become to me. 

                                                                               

   I never thought that, one day, my call list would contain only your number; I still remember the day we shared our numbers. We had already met two times before through our common friends. Our clothes matched both the times. The secret glances we both stole of each other and the hushed smiles.

   When you first called me that evening and told me you were checking if I gave you the right number; I was about to call you that same evening, which I later confessed.

   Our casual good morning and good night texts that, with time, became long and incomplete – no amount of words could complete our thoughts. Our calls that started with minutes extended to hours, but still couldn’t contain our talks. Every bye was followed by an urge to call you again, to listen to your voice again and to talk to you again. Every morning I used to plan and jot out few extra minutes for you!

   The first time our hands touched, fingers actually. I had suggested that we walk instead of taking a bus, it wasn’t an ideal set up for a walk – a highway with vehicles honking forever with scorching sun upon us and every kind of pollution around us – but still, with you beside me, it was enough! We talked about every silly and sensible thing and then that moment when our fingers brushed against each other and then you tangling yours with mine. We looked at each other and that was the first time ever I felt I could hold the time right there for eternity!

   I wanted the rest of my life, every moment of it, with you!

   But may be that wasn’t supposed to be.

   The way you abandoned me, left me fighting the demons of my life, our love, all alone. I stood against the world for you, and you couldn’t stand for your own self!

   I still waited for you, hoping you would come back, feeling my love has the power to bring you back – but today I laugh at myself for my stupidity.

   I don’t know if I could give anyone the place I gave you; however, I’m sure that it’s not for you anymore!

   I’m not writing this for you, but for me. Not to say goodbye to you, but for the you I’ve been holding on in my heart, in my life!

   May be it was just not meant with you,

   Goodbye!!

From someone you’ve lost forever!

Dreamers, Fighters and Achievers!!

    Here’s to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes… the ones who see things differently – they’re not fond of rules… 

                                                                                                               Steve Jobs

   We all have a dream, dream of making it big, dream of making it so big that our names are etched forever in the history, dream of doing something we love, dream of doing something we love so much that we could dedicate the rest of our lives just for it feeling every second we spent for it was worth it, dream of being different, dream of being so different that the difference we make becomes a standard!!

   Dreamers are the ones who take up risks and are willing to go to any extent to make their fallacies a reality, to achieve what they dream of. They are not afraid of going out of line for what they want, not afraid of making decisions that are labelled foolish, not afraid of making their own path rather than following someone else’s!!

   They get back on their feet even after life gives them hardest of blows, they don’t stop even when their paths are fortified, and they’ll fight, break or jump over the restraining wall.

   Nevertheless, it’s not their final destination that matters to them, because once they begin imaging their ideas, it is the journey that excites them, that gives them a high, which could never be experienced with any kind of drug!!

                                                                     

        

   They know they will never be accepted easily, that they are standing alone at their first step, that they’ll be criticized, be laughed at. They don’t ask for an easy success, they want to make their way through long and hard trail, they’ll show-off their failures like a warrior wears his scars!!

   However, they also know that the eyes that are doubtful today will look at them with admiration one day, the wagging finger that now tries to give them a piece of mind, will one day be a thumps up, the decisions they made, the risks they took will not be considered as risks, the faces that look down at them will definitely be, one day, look up to them!!

   They challenge life and everything on their way, they don’t just intend on winning, but impressing them with their undying passion and will!!

   You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can't do is ignore them because they change things... they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do. 

                                                                                                        Steve Jobs